Putting to bed

I typically put myself to bed 8 hours before I must wake up, when I have the luxury. Sunday nights are most problematic. Currently, I am looking at five hours, well below quota. Since my thoughts typically go to waste, as does the time spent lying in dark room on bed with eyes closed, here I am. Now I have become distracted with the cleanliness of my ring, a JC Penney catolog sitting by this computer, and this computer. If I were not here I would be in bed, as previously mentioned, I would be thinking .....

Wardrobe possibilities for tomorrow. Review of conversations of the day. Mental list of tomorrow's things to do. Admitting what will not be done and planning alternate activities. Idea for poli sci thesis. Have to send check for work. stop.
Perhaps thesis on (civil liberties, religion v. politics in some specific form, random political theory issue) would be more effective as novel. Begin writing mental abstract for novel. Compare to a non-fiction work on life's story. Scratch autobiography. Search for first sentence of novel. Seeking Dickensian brilliance and breaking of rules with banal yet striking beginning. Envision novels impact on society like Steinbeck. Put novel writing on to do list for next week. Determine to set up computer in room. Begin new, bold (unrealistic/crazy, but not late at night) idea for building revenue at work. Full stop.
Apply above thesis to family members and friends, to appear in novel. Scratch thesis idea for more current, potentially popular related theme. Contemplate past relationships. Compose emails to involved parties, move on to emails for friends I should have contacted more recently. Now, include Christmas cards to write. Remorse negates completion of email. Run through dialogue of next e-mail/conversation with board members. stop.
Touch upon frustrations with parents, funny comments and happenings. Move on to things I can change right there in my bed with these powerful thoughts. Meaningfulness of job? New color scheme for room. Which class to take at local university next semester. Switching to complete whole-grain diet. Songs I should get on my ipod. Better yet, CDs that must be purchased. Future career choices? Room might be greater affected by moving furniture than switching color. Shouldn't human hair growth be more random? Why are hairs so evenly spaced and how can it not be extremely painful for hair to come back, penetrate skin, after shaving? Decide to subscribe to NYTimes and Economist starting tomorrow. Added to mental to do list. Follicles, protein, something like that. yes. Potential volunteer activities, times. New clothing item I would like to purchase but have yet to find (currently very specific brown, thick knit button up/wrap sweater). Christmas gifts remaining to buy.. what to ask for. What about switching the color of my bedspread? Does cracked wheat count as a whole grain? My brother appreciates freedom of religion, step brothers right to bear arms, step sisters mother-in-law freedom of the press, me freedom to assemble, quartering soldiers does really stump the theory, dated amendment. Did I leave my shoes in the bathroom? Reminded of many things I have to do tomorrow, turn to side.... and repeat.

Anyway, there's not much of note going on around these parts. Thanksgiving is coming up and I have to go up with my Mom and Steve to my grandma's with all my beautiful cousins, I'm not really looking forward to that, esp. since my other siblings have found a way out of it. Work has gotten better and worse at the same time, in one sense it's less stressful because some much needed money has come in, but I'm also kind of hmm... dis-enamored with it, something like that, not so interested, maybe just lazy, I don't know - but maybe having the long thanksgiving weekend will be good for that.

I just finally finished house sitting last week, just a bad idea altogether, and since I haven't really gotten it together and found an apartment, I'm living at my Mom's house for the time being. It's kind of nice, sad that Candy isn't around anymore, weird because I still live there like a kid and slack a bit, and fun because baby Nathan is there, and he's really cute. His new word this week is Wacky from a Theo ...(dr. suess) book - Wacky Wednesday, it sounds more like aCKeee when he says it, but it's fun all the same, he makes that CK sound really well - drinCK truCK, yuCKy, he's got it down.

With such exiting things to write, it's a wonder why I haven't posted in a bit. Seems I need to be observant, reminisce or get inspired once again. I should wish my blog a belated 1st birthday, and promise to it I will be more excited/interested or do more exciting/interesting things so I might write more often.

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